NTU Open House

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Boo~ 2dae's NTU's turn!!! Hahaha~ after NUS yesterday, 2dae still go NTU. Go so many open house, as if it will make any difference to my ability to get admitted. Kaez...after yesterday, realises tat open houses are actually quite useless...yar..but went 2dae purely because I want to check out on School of Arts,Media and Design. I want to get into this school....cos its like one of the method for mi to go into advertising design other then to go laselle...haix....

Kaez...same thing as yesterday~ saw many people again~ not as many as yesterday though...proves that NUS is a more popular sch?? Haha~ as usual, saw Yew loong and Yit Wen more then one time there manz...DUdes...pls dunsae that Im stalking urall or wadever kaez....Im not interested in u guys~ Haha~

Aniwae, NTU's style of open house is rather different then NUS, mayb cos they alreadi had mani talks before that, so it was more of like a exhibition style. Checked out on the SADM and Psychology. Psychology wasn't so bad...in fact i tink its better then in NUS. Cos its direct Major into psychology, but in NUS, muz go through one year of general studies first before can bid for psychology in 2nd year, which i heard was difficult~ Blarz~ with my calibre~ veri risky in NUS. Haix~ wadever the case is, its not up to mi to choose lar...they want mi i should thank God readi...

Yea~ for SADM, Haix...Sad and disappointed.As usual, they are like Laselle, need portfolio interview and need to hand in work pieces...not that i can't work at producing some works for the admission,(in fact i've been thinking abt what to do for days and nights...), but seriously i believe if i produce works for the sake of producing at such situation im in now ,its realli gonna produce works of no quality. Haix....saw some people at the booth..Poh ling they all...all AEP wanz....how to go and compete with them? Pls manz....Gonna know my own calibre.....Morever, although i myself noe veri well, I WAN TO DO ADVERTSING DESIGN as a career and Im realli interested in it....but everyone is telling mi that its not for mi..... Im shunt b living in juz wad i wan to do and in my dreams cos its realli for people out there with the real talent. ( yar tat includes my parents and many of my friends), how encouraging it is in asking mi to persude wad I like and believe in...Haix~ Wadever it is larz....i guess its juz gonna b another lost dreams like many others....

Frankly speaking..i dunno how exactly my standard is at all the designs stuffs. I oni noe I can spend all my time juz working on designs and stuff...changing and editing designs again and again until im truely satisfied. Tats juz some kind of attitude I can't find when im doing other stuff...I dunno y. And im not veri convinced in myself tat I can't make it in the designing areana simply bcos I tink im juz not given the chance to see my own standard in any way. I realli regrade not taking Arts Elective in sec3 and then to AEP in JC. Tats all juz bcos my mum is against mi spending time on arts and designs and stuffs...so disallow mi to do them last time. My mum juz feels that arts is not for ppl like mi and since no one in the family has been arty-inclined before, I WUNT be able to make it....so y waste time and money...Haix~ I regret! I regret to so many wrong decisions that i've made last time! I regret not pushing hard enough and for listening to my mum to not take art in sec3 . I should haf been more firm in wad i like to do...not wad my mum tinks I shlf fouces on!!! And regret taking my JC subject combi just because everyone tells mi that is the more practical combi to take and not choosing but wad i beliee i liek to study...Haix~ Full of regrets~

Haix~ I hate this....somehow, I can't help it but i hate my mum for always influencing my decisions. Y does she always haf to listen to others in wad is good for mi, rather then asking mi wad i realli want?!? Like juz bcos some aunties say that their daugters do tis and tat and acheive tis and tat....then i muz follow suit and acheive wad they acheive~ Then when come to making decisions, she will ask mi to make my own decisions, at the same time corner and influence mi towards wad she has decided for mi~ Isn't tat contridicting?!?

I can't help tis negative feeling~ but im realli full of regrets now! Mayb i will get over it but I noe its a regret that has changed my whole life somehow. At least if i've tried b4 and prove to myself that I can't make it...I wunt haf feel tis bad...

Im realli gonna earn hard to send my bro to NAFA School of Young Talent as much as I can. I want him to develop in what he is good at and what he enjoys doing. I dun wan him to regret next time like I did now.....Its a horrible feeling....